One year ago we were devastated to find out that I had miscarried my second baby. The pain, confusion, doubt, and agony were almost unbearable. If someone had told me in that moment that I would have three baby girls the following year, I would have laughed and said he was crazy.
But God knew all along that this was our story. He divinely orchestrated every second of this journey for us. Although there were times of extreme hurt, major doubt, hopelessness, unwavering faith & wavering faith, I wouldn’t have changed one bit of it. Looking back and seeing His hand in every moment makes it all worth it. Knowing that He never let go, never left us, is just a small picture of His faithfulness in our lives.
As I sit here surrounded by my three little ones (one crying & two sleeping), I have two choices. I can choose to be overwhelmed by the exhaustion & stress of taking care of three newborn preemie babies (which is actually a very reasonable and understandable option). Or I can choose to be overwhelmed by pure joy, love, and thankfulness for these blessings. Being a mother is what I dreamed of and longed for for so long! Thankfully, He knew my dream better than I did. I imagined having one baby first and then more later. I imagined having a mixture of girls/boys. I imagined having my first child much sooner than this. But, wow, am I glad God was in control and not me.
I write this post today to highlight how quickly and drastically your life can change. We were in mourning last May. We were childless. We had a deep unfulfilled longing in our hearts. Yet, today we sit here with our three precious daughters and could not be happier! (well… maybe with a little more sleep, but still.)
For those of you waiting for answers, be still and know that He is God! He is sovereign and has not forgotten you. His plans are far better than ours though they may look COMPLETELY different! His timeline is better than ours, though the waiting can seem like agony. And while I do not want you to expect your story to turn out just like mine, I do want you to expect big and great things from Him. We serve a loving, faithful king. I am confident that He is writing your story in a way that you may not have chosen for yourself, but will prove to be much better.
Such a good read and reminder! So happy for you guys!
What an awesome testament! I am so happy for you guys!
I think I met you once in Knoxville, but I went to school with Brandon. I love seeing the pictures of the 3 babies on Facebook. I don’t usually read many people’s blogs, but for some reason I was drawn to read yours and it was very inspiring. It is something that I needed to hear. I have desires of things to happen in my life and it hurts to see other people and how their lives are all coming together and sometimes you feel like you are just sitting there and everything has stopped for you. Sometimes you feel like you are forgotten, but in all reality I know that my timing is not necessarily God’s timing. Thank you for sharing. I enjoyed reading. -Blair Lee